Fear of Rejection

I came to talk to a friend about one my absolute most favorite topics. The fear of rejection that plagues most of humanity.

I recovered an old story about this, with relations to certain myths and psychology.

“Those in a hurry will not arrive.” -Lao Tzu

When did your mind start reeling with thoughts?

That was a question I asked someone who had asked my assistance with some of the things that tortured the person.

The person responded, “at age 11 when I healed myself.”

I instantly knew what was wrong. The entity had used abilities without standing on firm foundation. How could it? It had never learned anything related to this, just like I had never learned to heal myself but suddenly did. I had read some of The way of Zen though and meditated which might very well have saved my sanity.

Through sheer will and determination, the person recovered from childhood osteoathritis induced child paralysis…. you don’t do that…the medical personel were puzzled.

The person described to me the horrors of just being in bed unable to move anything but the head. I can imagine imprisonment like that is not particularly fun.

The person had used the higher energy centers unconsciously, but neglected the lower. This means chakra 4 was not prepared for such workings. I tried to give the person this information in a blog post the 10th of April 2015. Image from FB conversation where the link and password is given can be found in the images section. (this is missing)

According to Ra, this causes insanity / mental instability. I was aware of that somehow, it was not something I had read or learned, it became more clear when I read the Ra material 9 months later.

35.4 explains this using Adolf Hitler as an example. I remind you Adolf was obsessed with the paranormal/occult and burned almost every book he could get his hands on to prevent other people from obtaining the knowledge contained. Thankfully he failed. There are other information ways than books 😉

What were the results for that person?

The person described itself as going from “one extreme to the other” going from low self-esteem and sadness to high-selfesteem and happiness. This is usually called Bi-polar or manic depression when it reaches a certain amount of intensity. I had myself observed this pattern in behaviour, and it was in fact one of the things the person asked me to help with.

Paranoia and fears, the person suffered from a serious of (to me visible, microexpressions, fidgeting and sudden movements.) fears.

The person explained that it sometimes would feel like its head was exploding with thoughts and drew a drawing to reflect that.

Now, what happens in the downstate of this person when the person is not having high levels of self-esteem?

“There is overwhelming evidence that the higher the level of self-esteem, the more likely one will treat others with respect, kindness, and generosity, People who do not experience self-love have little or no capacity to love others.

— Nathaniel Branden”

The person did exactly the opposite of treating people with care. Arrogance, ignorance and accusations. In short the entity treated people in a consciously unloving manner.

What is the result of such behaviour?

12.29 Questioner: What could one of these entities do to become
karmically involved? Could you give us an example?

Ra: I am Ra. An entity which acts in a consciously unloving manner in action with other beings can become karmically involved.

What is the result of Karma ultimately if not resolved?
-Bad things happen.

How does one resolve such karma?

18.12 Questioner: You stated yesterday that forgiveness is the eradicator of karma. I am assuming that balanced forgiveness for the full eradication of karma would require forgiveness not only of other-selves but forgiveness of self. Am I correct?
Ra: I am Ra. You are correct. We will briefly expand upon this understanding in order to clarify.

Forgiveness of other-self is forgiveness of self. An understanding of this insists upon full forgiveness upon the conscious level of self and other-self, for they are one. A full forgiveness is thus impossible without the inclusion of self.

How does one get to the point where forgiveness can be done?

-To know consciously the crap that one has done to other people and forgive self for it, or ask forgiveness. Either works. Most people do not percieve their own mistakes as mistakes or are unwilling to admit them to themselves. this is a problem.


During the course of 4 months I started asking this person if the person had done anything bad? I had the dream of a future event that would unfold which was not of a positive outcome for this person. I knew roughly what would happen but not when, So I was in a race against an unknown amount of time.

The person responded: “I don’t talk badly about people behind their back.”

She did just that, talked badly about people behind her back. I caught her in doing so while walking with her boyfriend. I stood at the end of a street at the beach, the direction they were heading. 50 meters away I could hear her saying “THATS HIM!!” the boyfriend subsequently almost did not dare to walk past me. A guy I had talked to quite many times in a peaceful manner. I had never done anything to spook him. Now he was spooked… why was that?

The reason is simple because his girlfriend was slowly developing paranoid schizophrenia and he had just heard her completely irrational and wrong paranoid perspective of how I had tried to help her out.

Her Karma increased partially due to these actions. I cannot say how often she would do such things with other people as the target, but this time, she was caught red-handed.

I quickly realized that my physical presence would give her opportunities to repeat this pattern in respects to me, so I started avoiding her. I was hoping “out of mind, out of sight” would alleviate the problem.

Before all of this, I warned her of karma in a series of password protected blog posts. I shoved to her all the information she needed to understand why i dreamt her future, what karma is and how it can be alliviated. She responded.

“good morning, I read everything you wrote but only thing comes to my mind -enjoytime with grandma sometimes eyes are too much saying about the person even if you are trying to hide it … ;”

I was relieved.. she had the knowledge she required.

But… she did not. She lied about reading the blog posts.

I sometimes check how many people I reach with my blog posts. The publicly available ones had 1000’s of reads, the password protected ones had 0. She had not read it.

She did not read the 1st grade material but demanded to get the university level knowledge. This is not possible. The law of one can hadly be comprehended by human mind as it is, to skip important details is to invite fear and doubts. In an already paranoid person, This leads to such catastrophic events as I have previously described.

Below is a picture of what I suggested we should talk about next.

To that one she responded “but karma should not be changed” which would not have been her response had she done her homework.

The person has now resumed the patterns of “bad” behaviour and karma is significantly rising as a result. My hands are tied as I cannot personally interact with this person anymore.

Pictures: 1 the blogpost explaining the 4th chakra/heart chakra problem being the cause for blockages causing insanity. If not alleviated, full blown paranoid schizophrenia will be irreversible.

Picture 2: I explain to the person that karmic resolution is what we should talk about. I do that, to prevent the 2nd prophecy to become true. Her death.It is not a physical death per se, but a mental death of the person. A person with that illness, will be very much different than before the illness.

Details that could identify the person has been removed. It is of no relevance for the meaning.

What do I do? Risk approaching the person risking my entire environment percieving me as crazy because the person did not do homework enough to understand what I was trying to do? I won’t be able to go to places I enjoy going if this turns bad for a significant amount of time.

Ask someone else to shove the Ra material in front of her so she can possibly resolve it herself? She was introduced to Ra through me in wierd ways before. I will explain that in a future post. It is not important right now. The person was partially responsible of directing me to the material through a seriousof synchronicities. It was a two-way street so to say.

I need help to help this person and it is apparantly quite urgent.

Should I just stop caring and let the person continue the path of self-destruction?


And the meek shall inherit the earth.

The word “meek” has multiple meanings in a parallel timeline.

“Thunder in the other course of heaven”

In 4d negative there will be alot of warfare and the ones with weapons will inherit the earth.

In 4d positive there wont be warfare and the weak and the poor shall inherit the earth.

Untill such time, at 6d.


Are you guys crazy? You read some books, you notice some releations and begin speaking of doom? Why? An apocalypse is a visual representation of cleansing.

Self-discovery, cleansing and balancing.

There wont be any zombie apocalypse or anything else that paranoid delusional people seem to think. Ive met many of them.

Furthermore, the earth is round. If you want a flat earth, go make one yourself, but leave ours alone.

Reality defying jokes.

What does god do when he makes a spelling mistake? Nothing, he knows the devil is in the details.

What did God do after creating Adam and Eve`?
-He kicked Adam out of the garden of eden and married Eve
He did so because adam insulted gods intelligence by hiding behind a bush. God figured, it takes two and as luck turned out for Adam, God wasnt gay, so Adam went to hell and had sausage party with the devil because there was noone else around.
Eve showed god how she tended his creation so that he himself could understand it better, I guess only God and Eve knew what else was going on in the Garden of eden.
What does god see when he looks at other people?
-He is aweinspired by his own perfection


If god had a blog…. it would be MINDBLOWING!


What happens if evil men/women threaten Gods creation?
-He tosses them to hell to think about stuff for a while. But he will give a warning first. If they keep running from the devil, God will never se them again.


Hvad gør gud hvis han er ked af det? Han joker med jævlen indtil han er glad igen.


What happens if God gets a God complex?
-The devil will tell him he is insane and sent him to hell.

What does god do if he gets poisoned?
-He snaps his fingers and takes a leak.

What happens if god looks backwards? He cant see shit for he is so fast not even light can catch him.

What happens when god takes SPEED?
-He wont know because he is faster than light and can´t see ahead of himself and runs straight into Hell to discuss this with the devil.


Hvad laver gud og djælven når de er på besøg i paradisets have?
-De tager til helvede for at grille så adam og eva ikke får gode ideer og æder slangen.


What does god do when he is bored?
-He splits in two and cracks jokes with himself. Some say that is how man and women were created.. One must conclude that god is not joking…

Why were cats worshipped in Egypt?

Because a cat is its own creature and cannot be controlled by humans. The cat would only follow a god.


Why did the sun god Ra of egypt roam the underworld at night?

Well, he was fighting the “devil within” himself to keep balance in the world.

It is also called “the disolution of the EGO”, combining all the jungian archetypes to form the “buddah” which is said to be the all-being-in-one

Essentially he solved all of humanitys problems at night so that day could be awesome for everyone else and the funny part was, that noone but Ra/Hathor himself was 100% aware of it. 🙂

I think this is a socalled cosmic joke 😀


What did God do when he kicked Adam and Eve out of the Garden and eden?
-The Devil brought him Junkfood, cigarettes, alcohol and cannabis, mushrooms, LSD and tempted god to look at his own creation differently. What the devil forgot was the time. And as such the “devil” healed “god” God, benevolent as he was/is/will be forgave the devil for all his sins and lifted the devil 1 step up the staircase. However, The devil, stubborn as he is, still is chasing his own tail. But the devil and god has been at this table many times. God, benevolent as he is/was/will be will offer the devil one last present. It is whispered in the sounds of silence.


And the devil told god: “If someone offers you a rope – take it!” Pondering what the devil meant he climbed the rope out of hell and walked the planet.

What happens when God gets burned by fire? Nothing, he is heatproof, he BBQ¨s with the devil in his sparetime, he is used to fire.

What does the Devil do when he freeses? He teases god so that god comes down there, sings the Doors “baby you can light my fire”

The kid who knocked out his dad.

I have been talking to my neighbour Claus today, he graciously allowed me to post this story. I find it helpful. It is a lesson about taking responsibility of ones actions. Essentially facing the demons from the past that might have been viewed “incorrectly” at that time. We found one of his “demons/shadows”, as he gave his son a magnifying glass. I asked him, if that was a good idea, because, maybe the kid would use the magnifying glass when daddy is not around… that would not be a problem he suggested.

Claus had the day before, talked to me about a tendency to want to turn off the stove and cooking plates, even when not turned on, that immediately became an indicator to me as a slight OCD event. I asked him if that might be one of the skeletons in his closet? (jungian shadow) I asked him, have you done something with fire once that had unintended consequences because you did not take responsibility? He went home to think about it, the day after he brought me his story.:

So on to the real story about Claus himself

So, this little boy Claus is sitting on his room. He has a lighter, some plastic and he has concluded, that some plastics actually shrink when you heat them. What he did not know at that time was, that some burn alot faster.

He lit the plastic thinking it would just shrink abit, instead it caught fire. He dropped it on the carpet in sheer panic. He jumped on the fire until it was out, leaving a big black charred spot.

Claus explained to me what he thought in that moment, he thought, this is my room, noone will notice it. I will run of to my friends place and noone will know I am there, because I am not telling anyone and as such… everything will work out just fine.

It would not work out fine… It would not work out fine at all….

Daddy trumps up, rings the bell.: “Is claus here?”

Claus – hearing that, runs out of the backdoor to avoid confronting his angry dad. Daddy sees it though and runs around the house to catch him. He runs alot faster than 9 year old Claus. Daddy is very close to grabbing little Claus, however, Claus turns around a corner, and his dad is 10 cm from reaching him. After turning the corner, Claud hid in a bush, expecting him to be grabbed any second. He sits down and awaits his fate. Nothing happens…. Claus waits for 10 minuttes… still nothing.. He steps out of the bush and looks for his dad. Daddy is nowhere to be found…?!?

Part II coming up soon(TM).