Many many years ago, I was a sk8terboi (link to avril lavigne skaterboy)
We got drunk, we were around 15 years of age. One night a girl was really drunk and had fallen asleep/passed in a little shed somewhere close to the skateboard ramps. Three of my friends, possibly only two, seemed it was a good idea to “sneak it in” while she was sleeping. I only vaguely remember the situation, but, I did not go between her and the three guys. I do not know exactly what happened, but I suspect it was nothing good.
I could have gone in between, but why did I not? Well, during my school time I was harrassed greatly by most of my classmates in school. I was wearing glasses and I did not read cartoons. I read lademans encyclopedia of knowledge so I was considered a wierdo.
Fearing loosing my newfound friends I did not interact. Such fear is called fear of abandonment. I have forgiven myself for not interfering. I hope the girl wasn’t marked for life, whoever she was, because I do not remember clearly who it was.
Ra: I am Ra. The entity you call Jesus was galvanized by this experience and began a lifetime of seeking and searching. This entity studied first day and night in its own religious constructs which you call Judaism and was learned enough to be a rabbi, as you call the teach/learners of this particular rhythm or distortion of understanding, at a very young age.
At the age of approximately thirteen and one-half of your years, this entity left the dwelling place of its earthly family, as you would call it, and walked into many other places seeking further information. This went on sporadically until the entity was approximately twenty-five, at which time it returned to its family dwelling, and learned and practiced the art of its earthly father.
When the entity had become able to integrate or synthesize all experiences, the entity began to speak to other-selves and teach/learn what it had felt during the preceding years to be of an worthwhile nature. The entity was absolved karmically of the destruction of an other-self when it was in its last portion of lifetime and spoke upon what you would call a cross saying, “Father, forgive them for they know not what they do.” In forgiveness lies the stoppage of the wheel of action, or what you call karma.